its exactly 8.15am in adelaide
and we're waiting to board the ferry to kangaroo island.
the weather has been really great,
except that it doesnt feel like summer at 18 degrees.

one of the best nights at morella farm
where we saw a million of stars sprayed across the dark night sky.









more to come.
miss you lovely people.

i havent even started packing,
not even the cabin bag.

.. and we're setting off in less than 4 hours time.
i want to see whether i can pull it off.



















i'll be back
.. pretty soon. (:

hei konā rā!

i looked at the vast night sky tonight
and i couldnt believe that
i cant even count the number of stars sprayed across the blackness.

it was simply ..
.. beautiful.

there were even three lined up in a straight row.



i started to miss those shooting stars
back at pulau ubin.





i have been watching avatar: the last air bender episodes back-to-back.
my bed time is past 5am every night
and tonight i'll stay up for the final installment.
woo!







we'll be flying off in nineteen hours time and
the new luggage bag ibu bought for us is not even opened yet.

as i have been telling everyone ..
"nothing beats the adrenaline rush of packing your luggage at the very last minute."
unfortunately, the parents and aunt do not share the same excitement as i do.

so
for this time round
i'll be pushing myself to pack only in the last 1 hour.


it'll be one hell of a mad hour.

i read and saw something so irksome
that made me roll my eyes and go, wth.

.. just because it made me think of -
what ifs, why cants and why isnts.



right on cue, i saw this email in my inbox -


subject: jangan benci-membenci

Ramai juga orang yang gagal dalam pergaulan kerana menyimpan perasaan
BENCI dalam hati mereka. Tuhan itu maha adil. Perasaan benci dalam diri
kita akan menyebabkan ramai orang mudah benci terhadap kita. Misalnya,
orang yang membenci ibu bapanya mungkin akan dibenci oleh
rakan-rakannya. Orang yang membenci jirannya atau bekas kekasihnya
mungkin akan dapat kebencian daripada rakan sekerjanya atau malahan
ketua jabatannya. Justeru hapuskanlah segala perasaan benci daripada
hati kita agar kita mudah menjalin hubungan dengan orang lain.

Kaedah Mengikis Benci
Cara yang terbaik untuk mengikis benci ialah dengan memaafkan semua
orang sebelum tidur malam. Jika setiap malam sebelum tidur kita sentiasa
mencuci muka, memberus gigi, membersihkan diri dan mengibas tempat
tidur, tidak bolehkah kita mencuci hati kita dengan memaafkan semua
orang sebelum tidur?

Pengalaman secara peribadi penulis menunjukkan bahawa dengan memaafkan
semua orang sebelum tidur, kita akan dapat membersihkan hati serta
menenangkan fikiran dan mudah menjalin hubungan baik dengan orang lain.

Faktor-faktor Yang Boleh Merangsang Kehebatan Dalam Pergaulan Antara
faktor yang menyebabkan kita mudah berinteraksi dengan orang lain dan
orang lain mudah tertarik kepada kita ialah :-
1) Jaga solat dan lakukan ibadah-ibadah khusus dan umum yang lain.
2) Ssentiasa bersangka baik terhadap orang.
3) Sentiasa memberikan senyuman ikhlas kepada orang di sekeliling kita.
4) Banyakkan bersedekah, samada dalam bentuk wang, senyuman, bantuan
tenaga, masa, nasihat, idea, pandangan, sokongan moral dan doa yg
berterusan.
5) Sentiasa memperbanyakkan sabar. Nabi s. a. w. pernah berpesan supaya
mencari 144 sebab sebelum kita memarahi orang.
6) Sentiasa ceria apabila berjumpa dengan orang lain. Pastikan setiap
orang seronok berinteraksi dengan kita.
7) Pamerkan perasaan sayang dan sentiasa sayang -menyayangi antara satu
dengan yang lain.
8) Bentuk dan pamerkan sahsiah yang positif setiap masa. Peribadi yg
kurang sopan akan menyebabkan orang lain rasa mual terhadap kita.
9) Amalkan sunnah-sunnah harian setiap masa dan insyaAllah orang lain
akan tertarik kepada kita.
10) Jika wujud sebarang perasaan sombong atau benci terhadap orang lain,
terus ingatkan diri kita tentang mati. Kita mudah insaf dan balik ke
pangkal jalan apabila mengingati mati.
11) Sentiasa syukur dan redha atas pemberian Allah swt.
12) Sentiasa memberi salam dan ucap selamat kepada orang lain. Pemberian
salam akan mengukuhkan hubungan sesama manusia.
13) Pamerkan simpati kepada setiap individu-individu yang memerlukan
simpati dan perhatian.
14) Jadilah pendengar dan kawan yang setia.
15) Sampaikan berita baik tentang orang lain dan sembunyikan kelemahan
atau keburukan orang lain.
16) Sentiasalah bermaaf-maafan sebelum berpisah dengan seseorang dan
iringi perpisahan dengan doa.

Terlebih dahulu baiki diri untuk menarik perhatian orang lain terhadap
diri kita, kita perlu Orang yang mengasihi dirinya tidak akan melakukan
sebarang kegiatan yang boleh men-sabotaj dan merosakkan dirinya. Setiap
tindak-tanduknya akan dilakukan secara berhikmah dan sentiasa memikirkan
perasaan orang lain. Ingatlah pesanan seorang sarjana:
"Orang tidak kisah setakat mana yang anda tahu (berilmu), sehinggalah mereka tahu yang anda kisah terhadap mereka."




only then did i realise that i may be more blessed
than half the people in this world.
alhamdulillah.




anyway, seeing busu's email made all of us smile:


it seems that the temperature in adelaide is dipping.
its just too bad the exchange rate isnt.

waiting for the brother to come home
from the release of his psle results
is like waiting for a son to come home from war.

liberation is the end of all papers.

the smell of fresh green grass.
the warmth of the afternoon sun.
the bursting of those colourful balloons.
the taste of everything that filled our stomachs.
the smiles plastered on everyone's faces.

ignite all your senses to the start of the holidays.











on a different note:
LETS ENJOY, PEOPLE!

dan-de-lion [dan-dl-ahy-uh n]
-noun
1. a weedy composite plant, Taraxacum officinale, having edible, deeply toothed or notched leaves, golden- yellow flowers, and rounded clusters of white, hairy seeds.







despite hitting the bed only after oprahs' at 6am
with my blocked nose and my eyes all puffy and swollen,
i had a perfectly great sleep with an equally wonderful dream.



.. it was like falling in love all over again.

i was awakened many times
but each time i fell into slumber thereafter,
the dream continued to where it was paused.

it was just ..
so impossibly perfect.






i want to sit barefooted in a field filled with dandelions
gently blow on one of its rounded puffs
watch dreamily at the white seeds dancing in the breeze

.. and continue dreaming.

if i were given a dollar
for every single teardrop i shed,
i'd be a millionaire this very night.

if syairah were to use her stethoscope
to check my heartbeat at this moment
all she would hear is my heart breaking -
into a million tiny pieces.

and this alone could be the very reason
for my million what ifs ..












words are like bullets and they kill like any good gun.

i remember we were driving
driving in your car
the speed so fast i felt like i was drunk
city lighs lay out before us
and your arm felt nice
wrapped round my shoulder
and i had a feeling that i belonged
and i had a feeling i could be someone,
be someone, be someone.



it's currently on repeat.









till all the madness is over,
i'll be back.