i remember we were driving
driving in your car
the speed so fast i felt like i was drunk
city lighs lay out before us
and your arm felt nice
wrapped round my shoulder
and i had a feeling that i belonged
and i had a feeling i could be someone,
be someone, be someone.



it's currently on repeat.









till all the madness is over,
i'll be back.

this is the reason
why i want to learn how to play the guitar.

i love it.

if all else fails,
i can only wish so hard that
the boyfriend decides to surprise me
and pull off 'poker face' for me,
daughtry style.

and we all know
that not all wishes will come true.

you know those guys in the novels you read
where you yearn to find someone just like that
and have him call you "his"?

well, they dont exist.

A NEW DISCOVERY WAS MADE


on the 15th of october, 2009, thursday, at exactly 2:11 pm, a discovery was made by nurul huda yazid. the aspiring educator was at the second floor of the canteen, working on the modility profiling for students on her laptop.

what happened to be an accident, proved to be a new discovery. she accidentally pressed the windows key and tab key concurrently and discovered that it lead her to multiple views of the windows opened. she could merely navigate between the window views by pressing the tab key.

she decided to call this discovery, "H.Y".

rainbow coloured monday

the very first, ever.

gourment dishes: texas chicken, hawaian special
side dishes: cheese sticks with dip, chicken drumlets, calamari rings
drink: coca cola (free with minimum $40 purchase)

dipped into the spa pool, swam a few laps,

lounged (and lunched) by the pool side, hot shower.







now, what are monday blues?

just because i loved it!
reblogged from harlequinn:

you know that its true
everytime i see your face, i miss you, baby
you know that its you
i want to let you know you're driving me crazy
i'd do anything to help you to see
i dont think you understand what you're doing to me

you know that its true
every now and then i want to call you, baby
you know that its you
i say a prayer that you'll come back to me, baby
life aint anything alone, cant you see
you're an angel in my eyes, everyday you're closer to me.



its cheesy, i know.
but i cant help putting it up
after hearing it over at seoul garden in taka.











happy 19th, love.

you know, i would write you a-page-long love note
but this is as much i could write here.

usually, my to-do list would be written on pieces of purple post-its and pasted on my mirror. one post-it for every single thing that has to be done and its very therapeutic to remove one post-it from the mirror each time i completed something.

right now, seeing my list of to-dos, those purple post-its would take up my entire mirror.



things to do by next week


DED 100
1) add input to mindmap and email eve by sunday, 11 oct
2) read up on vygotsky and social-emotional learning and prepare sharing session
3) meeting with group members on tuesday, 13 oct, 5.30pm
4) e-learning week
a) read up eggen chapter 14 (pg 430-468) and chapter 15 (pg 470-496)
b) participate in 2 online quizzes and email tutor the results
c) contribute at least 2 posts on the discussion board on the given topics

DED 103
1) online group discussion:
a) read up on the case scenario
b) do a short write-up on the questions, for both part 1 and 2
c) includes models, strategies or therioes that are find relevant to the case
d) justify why you chose those models
e) relate to the research that you have done on ADHD
f) include references where necessary
2) email hani by friday night, 17 oct.

DED 107
1) to borrow upper primary health education coursebook
2) do up powerpoint presentation
3) prepare 20 questions for online quiz

DSD 100
1) to borrow mekar textbook and panduan guru
2) to do up a detailed lesson plan, by thursday, 15 oct

DSF 100
1) sastera presentation with sha on tuesday, 13 oct

gesl
1) to type out gesl minutes
2) to email lynn and jannah


and this is only for next week. keeping in mind 3 group presentations and 2 individual assignments due on the 1st week of november, im hyperventilating. i have not started even a bit for the assignments. not to mention that exams are exactly a month away and im completely not prepared. its time to panic!

and i totally cant work well under pressure. i can forsee myself staying up till 5 am, not having my meals until my work is completed, eyes glued to the laptop and fingers furiously hitting the keyboard - due to last minute work. and its entirely my fault for procrastinating. not to mention the dark circles and eyebags!

goodness, i am even babbling right now.










by the way,
the sunshine turns 8 today!
she would be having he celebration next week,
despite the little surprise we gave her just now.













i woke up really late for school that thursday
and the boyfriend was so sweet to offer to send me before he started work.
and he asked me the cutest question ever,
"you're not ashamed that a mcdonalds' rider is sending you to school?"
he was in the uniform. (:

while riding on his suzuki drz, the sky looked really intimidating.
it was not before long that rain began pelting down on us.
we were not ready for the storm, he was raincoatless.
he turned around and asked, "go on?"

now, i just have something about him -
with his visor down and turning around to face me, while on the bike.
cause each time he does that, he looks so impossibly hot.

with my mind distracted, i stupidly told him to go on.
it wasnt before long that the rain got heavier,
accompanied by claps of thunder and flashes of lightning.
he didnt dare ride in the storm, especially with me as pillion.

he rode back, sent me to the nearest taxi stand
and even gave me taxi fare.
i cant help but notice that
he was drenched from head to toe.



and right now,
my boyfriend is down with fever and flu. ):

he loves me,
he loves me not
he loves me,
he loves me not

he loves me.
does he?

it was the worst, ever.
torrents of rain, just threatening to spill.


the nonchalance and i-dont-give-a-damn attitude
was a far cry from the usual coolness that i saw in him.
especially that absolute certainty.







i then realised at that very moment,
he didnt need me.
he didnt even want me.

and it was me all along,
holding on for my dear life on that string
called love.

"we said let go
but i kept on hanging on
inside i know its over
you're really gone
its killing me
cause there aint nothing i can do
baby,
i stay in love with you."











but like all thunderstroms
the gale will subside to a breeze
and the downpour diminishes to
a mere pitter patter on the window sill.







i loved him more than ever,
in our 19 months together.



and when he said,
"this will not happen, ever again",

it was like justin timberlake whispering in my ears.














lets work on this, baby.
together.