wednesdays are the most brain-draining days -
at the end of the day,
this is what my list will look like:

i dont have to put up the look on my face,
right?











after much deliberation with ibu,
i gave the month long greece-turkey trip a pass
cause i thought it was not going to be
how i expected it to be.

i would love to visit turkey,
especially the grand bazaar in istanbul.
even though they said the bazaar in tehran was similar,
i dont think anything can compare to the 4,000 shops the grand bazaar boasts!

so ..
ibu said that one of these days,
we'll head down to greece-turkey by ourselves -
minus the backpack.




hopefully.

one of the best things ever is that
my weekends are 4 days long -
i bet nothing can beat that.


the weather today is especially good
since it rained throughout the night,
the morning and afternoon after is comfortably cool.
apart from having to send the sister to school,
i can lounge all day in bed cause im having the entire house to myself -
till at least 5pm.




nana was right,
snorting at my, "im going to run every friday mornings"..
.. cause it never happened ever since the start of 2010.

pfft.











suddenly
i feel like doing so many things and go places
which require money.
i guess i have to watch my hard earned money i saved (to get my own crib)
for the past 20 plus years,
deplete.

like i have a choice.












where is my oil sheikh when i need him?

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

justin bieber's on repeat.


























this doesnt make me a paedophile, right?

im going to plant a venus flytrap.







seriously, botany doesnt run in the family.
you know those plants outside and inside my house,
outside and inside the pond?
everyone else in the family had a hand in them
(even nana waters those plants occasionally)

except for me.



if i lived on a landed property with acres of land,
i would love lush greenery around me -
but the garderner's going to mend the greens.

but for now
i find them time and space consuming.








so right now
im getting myself in this to see if im a green finger.


for now
i can forsee that my venus flytrap wouldnt be able to grow as
huge, fierce and ugly as i imagined it would be
as the pot is seriously a minature. seriously.












.. unless it has been feeding on something else.

i give you everything that i am
im handing over everything that ive got
cause i want to have a really true love
dont ever want to have to go and give you up

stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
and i want to make it worth the fight
what have we been doing for all this time
baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right.















dear God,
please give me the strength.

my resolution - for this semester.












you know the 3 new year resolutions i made for 2009?
i regretfully admit that i complied to neither.
though some efforts were done, they're nothing to be proud of.

so i made a resolution this year:
im not going to list any resolutions,
to avoid being too disappointed with myself.

but as usual,
i couldnt help myself from posting one for this semester.
and it is essential that i abide to it -
to prevent the chaos and break downs i went through the previous semester.




i pray
and hope ..

2010 will be a better year for me,









and for you too.